Sunday, February 25, 2007
yay . life's getting better . at last ! hahabut still i dread to see him everyday ! fuck off please ?
don't you fucking dare touch me again . arghhhhhh . still can stand him . but yet i don't bear to do anything ? arghhhh .
mm..all i need to do now is study . need to study physics today . i dont understand a thing . who can help me in physics ? i hate it ! chem test coming soon too . shall revise later at night .oh shit i forgot i got emaths and amaths test too . ohno .
4 test in 2 days . ohmy . i shall start revising after this post ..
urm .yesterday mahjong with nicole and charm . weeee . fun fun . but i was losing like shit . no luck at all . damn hard to get the tai . sigh . shall play again soon ((: charm was high and retarded yesterday. haha. i think she was trying to reduce me , but she was too tired that she fell asleep . waha .
boy,thanks for being there. love ya.
i shall go study now . good bye .
yay. i can see you soon !
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 3:15 PM
Tuesday, February 20, 2007
sighhhh .who got spare phone ?! willing to lend a friend of mine ?
and who is willing to donate money to a someone i know who is not exactally fotunate . any amount would do . he doesnt know im doing this for him . if this doesnt work out i'll just save up to help him myself (: please help . sigh .
would it be out of line if i said i missed you ?
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 7:40 PM
Sunday, February 18, 2007
sigh. why must life get more and more complicated .boy, whats the truth . i really dont know what to do . sigh . i know its hard to commit again . but why hurt yourself being like this . i know you have your problems but i'll try my best to make you happy .
it hurts seeing you like this . i care bear to see you drunk . it hurts badly see you so sad and i feel so hopeless not being there . why cant i care for you . you care for me so much .. thats the least i can do .
sigh. i dont wanna to lose you . i know , a friend is all i will ever be to you . just cant accept it i guess
this happened to me once , i lost him . i really dont wanna lose you . dont worry . everything will be fine . i have financial problems too but i have to live with it . boy..i know you are busy with your work but concentrate on your studies too .
money cant buy the most precious things in this world . boy . you are precious to me .. dont be sad . im not leaving . i wont . i promise . i promise not to hurt you . dont be scared anymore .
you cant always hide from reality but instead face it . dont worry . everything will be alright . hope everything will be fine soon .
your hp's spoilt now . cant even talk or text you to know how you're feeling . just hope you take care . im not sure if we will talk after today . i dont know whats happening now .
i love you , i really do . i told you i'll wait . 2 years for you its worth it . maybe i'll regret or you will be happy loving someone else then but at least i tried .just hope you are happy .dont drink and smoke too much .take care..
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 5:04 PM
Saturday, February 17, 2007
the amount you hurt me . i dont think you have the right to be called my brother . fuck off for all i care . good i cant see your fucking face at home now . thank god you left .treating me like crap . who do you think i am . if you cant control your anger dont vent it on me you dumb ass . all i did was say it was expensive .
i never wanted your money . if you cant understand english then its your bloody problem . ha . you're not my family . uncivilised freak . i have never seen a guy lift up a finger on a girl ..
to make me bleed and have stiches once is enough . what more do you want . kill me for god sake . ha . you left and there's a party downstairs . haha . nobody cares you're gone . haha . what a loser . no life ! haha . how much more pathetic can one get .
my life is getting better by minute witthout you in my life, family . bye bitch or should i say it .
and boy don't be stupid to waste your energy beating him up . its not worth it . dont hurt yourself for no reason . no more drinking boy! love you.
i dont want to wait 2 years ! oh boy . faster break your promise so i can have you !
sorry for not posting . computer is spoilt . but i'll be online more since it has left . yeah ! hurray ! hope it doesnt come back . it doesnt deserve . my promise to it , you will never gain my respect , ever !
leo ! stop drinking ! arghh ! oh no . im worried! =((
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 11:48 PM
Saturday, February 10, 2007
suppose to go with my brother and mum to parkway to buy some stuff for my bro . but bro took so long to get ready. so i went to charm's house instead ..
weee . many many pictures ! weeeee . we were crapping so much . so long since i had so much fun . haha . and i love her yummy yummy chocolate chip cookies ! yum yum!
here are some of the pics we took (:
haha . went to parkway then home .
after that nicole called me to go boonkeng there . so went to boonkeng . must change 3 mrt lah . so mafan . met parveen first . parveen's phone dropped from 9th story ? so scary lah . haha .
nicole came slacked with few people . dont know who . haha . took pictures too . haha .
after that wanted to meet patrick but he couldnt come down . oh well . then went to play ground . jiehua suddenly sms me few stuff . dont know if its true . sigh .
tell me the truth , dont leave me hanging here . I guess im not good enough for you . Im sorry . just wished i could be that lucky girl . boy. tell me the truth , is this love ?
home with nicole . cheer up girl . everything will be fine yeah ! mm. talked to him then went to sleep . sigh . i really dont know what to do . you keep giving me false hopes . boy. i love you but i dont know where this is heading .
woke up . brother come to nicole house to give tuition . i was maria making for then food and drinks . went home with bro after tuition . motorcycle !
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 9:04 PM
Friday, February 09, 2007
manfen didnt come school =( . i miss my ahma ! hahaschool was boring had 3 test . haha . but mrs remidious was too happy that she didnt want to carry out the lesson . missed 3/4 of ms chua's lesson but mr tan still came in to relief us , ms chua prepared a suprised test .
didnt go for netball . went home changed then headed to hospital . yay . my cousin looks alright . watched oliver twist with him . yay ! i think my cousin's cute . cant help but think how different life would be without him . just care bear to see him like this .
at about 6 plus went to meet charmain at clementi then headed to orchard ! got 2 blouses ! yay !
home at 11 .
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 8:58 PM
Thursday, February 08, 2007
HAPPY BIRTHDAY XINNING AND PATRICK :DDD
the memories have shattered 8:41 PM
Sunday, February 04, 2007
weee . im posting for my ahma ! haha . later she nag nagmm . been really tired this whole week . everyday netball its crazy ! my mum wants to complain . she is irritating . but really dont have much time for studying anymore . everyday when i come home , im too tired to do anything .
yesterday after netball match went home . while watching tv i slept . was too tired ! haha . woke up was so bored . nobody was home to entertain me . asked charm out eventhough body was aching . boredem was killing me . haha .
orchard to meet her and xinyi (: yay. bought shoes ! cheap and nice . YEAH ! pasta mania then home . weeeee . didnt do much .
hope my cousin's fine . friends pray for him okay ? thank you . loves
oh boy , I miss your voice !
I wonder if you're lonesome tonight
You know someone said that the world's a stage
And each must play a part.
Fate had me playing in love you as my sweet heart.
Act one was when we met, I loved you at first glance
You read your line so cleverly and never missed a cue
Then came act two, you seemed to change and you acted strange
And why I'll never know.
Honey, you lied when you said you loved me
And I had no cause to doubt you.
But I'd rather go on hearing your lies
Than go on living without you.
Now the stage is bare and I'm standing there
With emptiness all around
And if you won't come back to me
Then make them bring the curtain down
LOVES;
the memories have shattered 11:14 PM